Aufhebung Aufhebung f

a (=Abschaffung) abolition
[+von Gesetz auch] repeal, rescinding
[+von Vertrag] cancellation, annulment, revocation
[+von Urteil] reversal, quashing
[+von Verlobung] breaking off

b (=Beendigung) [+von Blockade etc] raising, lifting
[+von Beschränkung] removal
[+von Sitzung] closing
[+von Parlament] dissolving

c [+von Widerspruch] resolving, resolution
[+von Schwerkraft] neutralization, cancelling out

d obs (=Festnahme) capture, seizure

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life… You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.

Neil Gaiman

About my own Carver.ing dishes (at least a conflict remider):


Beyond the boundaries of the ordinary world of lives and houses, unguessed, undreamed of in their common-sense philosophy, lies the vast realm of the improbable; a world too disordered, so it would seem to hold together for a fortnight, let alone several years. And yet these lives, these houses continue to maintain a precarious equilibrium in defiance of all laws of man and nature. All the same, persons who base their calculations on the inexorable pressure of the force of circumstance assume, correctly, that such lives are doomed.

– J. Cocteau

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"...perhaps all the dragons of our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave. Perhaps everything terrible is in its deepest being something helpless that wants help from us."

R.M. Rilke


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"No(ooo) llora la nube que pasa cae la lluvia ataca el piso inunda la rama pura caigo al agua soy tu imaginación que desborda y desborda y me vuelve invisible quiero salir salvame de vos salto mortal un impulso Me quedo quieta en el fondo del agua tiemblo hace frío soy una canción soy tu abrigo Mirá tu imagen se clava en mí trata de hablar pero tiene mi voz quiero salir sálvame de vos salto mortal un impulso sin sentir ni reír me muevo en circulos para salir de vos me muevo en círculos para salir de vos me muevo en círculos para salir de vos"

Pero me preferís en triángulos. Y yo... yo en realidad soy sólo un asterisco (en la garganta)

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[07:12:46 a.m.] f.no says: ay el de la izquierda no lo pude leer bien
[07:13:25 a.m.] elise says: when we are sleeping
[07:13:44 a.m.] elise says: aeroplanes carry memories of the horrors we have given our silent consent to
[07:14:04 a.m.] elise says: into the night sky of our cities and leave them there to gather like clouds and condense
[07:14:12 a.m.] elise says: into our dreams before the morning

Nothing happens where we live and time does not pass we are stuck in a sudden electric moment like the second of the turning on of the car headlights like the second of the hit of the line of coke there is no history here the spectacle (fame) which takes its name from the spectre (ghost) rules and we see ghosts of ourselves pass by on billboards we see our own image pass by on the sides of buses and we remember nothing

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Everything perfect in its kind has to transcend its own kind, it must become something different and incomparable. In some notes the nightingale is still a bird; then it rises above its class and seems to suggest to every winged creature what singing is truly like.


- johann von goethe, elective affinities, from ottilie’s diary, 1809

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10.10.09

Un líquido aromático que fluye y se espesa por acción del aire, un breath que no se va, balsámico, energético, onírico.

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I'm no needle
I'm not charming
I'm uninteresting

Who cares if my water is no longer tenderness for my lover?
Lovers just idealize

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días muy raros también aquí. traducimos a la intimidad de un ritual de limpieza las vibraciones amatorias de la voz, una vibración de las infecciones orgásmicas en baños a oscuras, a la luz blanca del corredor y el desviado brillo naranja en las curvaturas del plexiglass. home. in your room. stripped. cae el agua otra vez. evoquemos la noche anterior sin tocar.

10.10.09

esta fue sólo un circo. ruido, licores anisados, nalgas entumecidas por las siliconas, cuerpos sudados, bailes ridículos, mazorcas y remixes. remix. ni hablar. hiperbólico extravagante.

dormimos al día que se llueve como en busca de un violento desabafo. los flashes. sigo sin perderte, jezabel, a la espera. sueños licuados. teenage love y juliette lewis hardly waits. la mirada, tu mirada, nunca como otras. nos amamos. vimos cambios en tu maquillaje, —sigues aquí jezabel—. home, I just want to thank you, ahí, al azul, al azul la vibración, la incompletud plena, amante, perfecta, orgásmica; una tristeza y volví a la cama —shake the disease— en el diez.diez.ceronueve, la vibración de los parlantes es el eco dormido del pulso bajo el agua, así golpea, de frente.

y al agua en los baños, el agua rosada por el color del cristanac, cristanac como los leds del fondo, una lluvia en la garganta y me dolieron los oídos: no cupo por la garganta. jenny canta la de strange days. ella and the licks. licks que la roja en unos días me va a cantar a mí, me va a decir: I bite your mouth in urgency.


I can hardly wait.

from A place to wash the heart

Atacama, Arica, Chile

Por ejemplo: Si haces álgebra con el mismo tipo de horror,
¿qué pasa? ¿se elimina?
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Se pone como en negativo, se absorbe el pulmón, deja de vomitarse el pulmón, queda en negativo, se pone en mute el pulmón, queda más adentro dentro del pulmón, se chupa, queda en mute.
A one breath away

lam: now is the only time I know.fever ray

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beneath the stains of time
feelings disappear

you are someone else I am ( ___) here



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